Our God-son Jamie...

Riaan and I were just chatting about our God-son Jamie and how we haven't seen him this week and how much we missed him today. He usually comes to church with us on a Sunday but he hasn't been feeling too well... :-(

He is the cutest little man in the world (yeah, yeah, the word biast does come to mind). He is absolutely the friendliest child I know and can go and be with anyone and be fine...

The video is from a couple of weeks ago when he spent the afternoon with us. He made me put him in the swimming pool and then I spent about an hour trying to get him out of the bath. Of course everytime I watch this video I smile...he's a cute kid...Yes he is...

....Being with him makes me ALMOST wanna have my own...ALMOST!

Breathe, just breathe....

Today is such a lazy day for me. Sitting in bed at the moment posting a new entry and drinking my coffee (which Riaan makes for me every Saturday without fail, before leaving for class)... Ahhhhh, life is good...

I am feeling so much better after my recent dip in the pool of pity (thanks to some special girlies for the kind words and advice) and although I still don't know what to do, I am going to take a couple of steps back, clear my head and with baited breath....see what happens...

Enjoy the rest of the weekend lovelies....

Hugzzz and all that other good stuff

The Woe that is in Friendship

Sometimes your closest friends end up hurting you more then your worst enemies ever could come close to.

I have been going through a little bit of a rough patch regarding a really good friend of mine and I just don't know what to do about it.
I am just tired. Tired of going through the same things, year in and year out. Fighting about the same things all the time and yet it just never changes.
I remember the last conversation we had. It was a three weeks ago, a Saturday in fact, I sms'd him to ask him how he was doing, just "checkin in" and making sure he was okay.. Since then, I haven't heard from him. I guess he has too much going on right now to find out every now and then if I am okay (yeah right). The thing is though, I miss him, he's my best friend...well at least for now he is. But I don't know how long I can keep trying when he is too busy...Too busy to check in and find out if I am okay, too busy too sms or email...too busy to do anything at all. I guess he is too busy keeping the lid on his life so tight that the only person who can get in there is him.
I don't know what's worse, working and trying and not getting anywhere or slowing seeing the end of a friendship unravel as the days go by and realising that unless both of us want this, there is nothing I can do to change that...and that's what hurts me, deep down into my very being, the realization that some relationships in my life just cannot be saved. I guess that is just what life is about. Twists and turns, changes that you cannot control.
For now and until I figure out what to do next, I just need to be strong and focus on the relationships that are working and not on the one's are are not...

Someday my life will make sense... but until then....

Happy Easter...

Who do people have to be so nasty...

I am just going to be venting a little bit here on a comment that was left on one of my posts the other day.

I guess this person got my blog address when I made a comment on Becca's blog the other day and I was just so annoyed that someone can leave a comment like this: 666. The final solution, the final claim.

Without even thinking I just deleted the comment... I choose to believe in God and all that he has promised me. I also feel that freedom of choice and religion is also exactly that. A freedom of choice... and while my decision to believe in God may not be understood by all... it should be respected because it is what I believe in and if you believe in something else... All good.. All I know is that I will not be going around leaving cooments like the one I received....

Anyhoo, just needed to get that off my chest...

It's called a Break up because it's broken...

I am feeling so much better after my week of being totally miserable and my sinus infection is finally clearing up.. Yey!!!

I came across this when I was off sick last week and I just had to share it. Sometimes we need to be reminded how special we are and what we deserve and I thought this book was really interesting.. Some the words were exactly what I needed to read and even though I may not be experiencing turbulence in my marriage, it's the friendship area of my life that is leaving me a little rattled at the moment..."It's called a Break up" by Greg Behrendt...

EXCERPT - Chapter One
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAHHHHHHH! F*#k, it hurts. It’s rocking the very core of your being. You never saw it com­ing. You knew this was going to happen. You were going to do it first. You only broke it off with him before he broke it off with you. You guys were supposed to be together forever. You never liked him that much anyway. He was such a great kisser. The sex wasn’t that great. You really liked his family. He hated your friends. You hated his shoes. You miss him soooooo much. There’s no doubt about it–breakups suck. And now here you are holding this stupid “Breakup Book” because, quite honestly, you’d do anything not to feel like this and maybe this book will shed some light on what you’re going through. Maybe you’ll get some sleep tonight. Or stop sleeping all the time.
In these first few hours or days or weeks of your breakup, there’s one all-important truth that you need to recognize: Some things can’t and shouldn’t be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It’s over for a reason, and even if you’re in denial about it, deep down inside you prob­ably know what that reason is. Even if you feel baffled by his decision to end it, it boils down to the same thing every time: Your relationship, despite its promise, has ceased to be right for one or both of you. It is, in effect, broken. That doesn’t make the breakup any easier to handle or change the overwhelming nature of the sadness that you feel. But that sadness, in turn, doesn’t make it less broken. If you’ve reached this point, where one or both of you feel that walking away is the best course of action, the cracks are there. And starting today, you’re not the kind of woman who settles for broken or hangs on to damaged goods, be it a radio, a pair of shoes, or a relationship. Your life is not a yard sale. It’s time to get rid of all the broken stuff that you’ve been lugging around for days, months, and maybe even years, and make the bold decision to start looking for stuff that works. The bright, clean, simple, easy, runs-so-smoothly-I-don’t-even-have-to-think-about-it kind of works. Being the first one to recognize that a relationship isn’t a match doesn’t win you any great prize–just the guilt of having to hurt someone’s feelings. So even though you are clearly wounded, getting out of this bro­ken relationship is the best thing possible, even if you didn’t know it was broken until now. “But some things can be fixed,”you say. True, but can your rela­tionship be fixed? Anything is possible, but we’d say probably not. Generally, if one person thinks that the breakup is the right move, they’re probably right even if it feels so wrong. Because unless there are two people putting on the coveralls and getting down in the trenches with some duct tape and superglue and a fierce determination, it isn’t going to happen. Need more convincing? How about this: The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, “No, thanks. I’ll try my luck elsewhere.” Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn’t a match made in heaven and they’re not worth donning coveralls for. Anyone who assesses you or your relationship as disposable is not worthy of your time or tears. Right now, your mind is probably working overtime to come up with all the reasons that you should still be together. Your heart is hurting and your mind wants to find a way to undo the pain. Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelevant. The harsh reality is that even if you have everything else in common, the one thing you don’t have in common is the belief that this relationship can work. That, my friend, trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food. It’s hard not to rack your brain, searching for reasons why the two of you couldn’t make it work, but sometimes the only real answer is the simplest one: People come together and move apart. It’s the age-old ebb and flow of relationships. Some are shorter journeys, and others were meant for a lifetime. That goes for friendships as well. We become attached to what’s familiar and sometimes we hold on to things that are safe and predictable even if they’re bad for us. A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different than how you liked them, fear of never finding another love, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We’re afraid of the unknown. The answer to all the questions swirling in your head– What will I do on weekends? Will I meet someone else?–is “You won’t know until you get there.” That’s hard, and it’s scary. But for the moment, you need to concentrate on what you do know–that you and he no longer share the belief that your rela­tionship has a future. It’s broken, and the longer you stay stuck in a dead-end relationship or spend your days mourning one, the less time you get on this planet to experience a great one. So take a deep breath, steel yourself, and realize that this is going to hurt for a while. There is no quick remedy for the pow­erful sting of heartbreak, though we’re going to try to make it easier for you throughout the book. You’re going to feel like crap head to toe and run the gamut of emotions. Edgy, moody, angry, depressed, nauseated–you name it. In fact, the amount of time it takes for you to start feeling great about yourself again is directly proportional to how much it sucks right now–especially if you weren’t the one who broke it off. Because at the end of the day, someone you loved, trusted, and valued has rejected you, and that really smarts. It’s hard to not take it personally. But– and here’s the important part–the fact of the matter is, they’re wrong about you. Just because your relationship is broken doesn’t mean you are! No matter what happened between you, no mat­ter what you may or may not have done wrong, you are still a kick-ass person. And even though you might not believe it right now, this breakup is the first step toward finding someone truly worthy of your greatness.

Use somebody.. Kings of Leon

I love this song..........

Seriously...Seriously..

My God sister Lizette and I were planning a ladies night out on Friday evening because I have been telling her that I just need a night out with the girls, dancing or just chilling... not as a wife but just as a girl (which by the way I tend to forget and just stay at home being a wife)..

I have really been looking forward to it, to the point where we have been discussing what we were going to wear (cause a girl needs to look good you know).. Needless to say I am a little annoyed that I am stuck in bed this very moment with the flu and a severe sinus infection and I was also told in no uncertain terms by hubby that if I still sound like someone was pinching my nose closed, that there was no way I was going to be going out.. No way...

All I can say to that is............Seriously......Seriously....